Nothing Much to Do

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 21:43:39 GMT

I just decided to post in account of me being quite bored. Telly is on the show 'House' I usually watch it but for some reason I don't quite feel like it tonight, I'm looking forward to 'Bones' I want to watch that alone. I like to be alone when I watch things, I have a tendancy to talk to people on the telly when they do something that is totally wrong - I hate it when they go "no, we can't be together" or "No, there is nothing going on between us, nothing is happening" people are always lying to eachother, a little white lie about the dog eating your homework I could let that slide but lying about love is annoying to the two people in love and the innocent bystanders who get the constant shall we or not thing! I'm sorry. I am in a rambling mood. In reference to the title of my blog it might be more than 50 thoughts but i like to tie things together - my name with my blog. Anyway I have to go - Bones is finally on

Goodnight

First Post - Thinking

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 17:00:56 GMT

Okay this is my first post. I like the idea of a blog. obviously since it is public I am not going to display my deepest thoughts to the world but it is often interesting what you can tell a stranger that you can't tell to someone close to you. I remember thinking last night, where will I be in a year? I contemplated many ideas as I tried to picture myself, the simple things came to mind of course - 'will I have braces?' 'Will I have a boyfriend?' but deeper less superficial thoughts also crept in such as 'My mum could die in that time' 'I could get hit by a car tomorrow' there is just no way to know. With everything changing around us all the time, even if we are most careful, accidents happen. And we never seem to be ready for them. This isn't the part when I say that something serious did happen to me today but i was very shocked when the head of my year at skool said he was leaving. he is something of a father figure to me - I have such a muddled family and he was the one person who didn't change. Its creepy how I thought such a thing then the morning after get news like that. I have to say that I like change as much as anyone- and that's not very much but we all have to face up to the fact that change makes us who we are today through the good and the bad and all we can do is pray that we are not one of the many people who loose someone or loose ourselves. I have been through more than most people know and now coming out at the bright end of the tunnel I feel I should live well because you never know when you are gonna be hit with something like that. I like to look towards the future. before my Head of year leaves I am going to talk to him about my A levels - I wanna take Psychology and History - i want to work towards possibly becoming a criminal psychologist - This seems to surprise people, they can't imagine me doing something like that. But the way I like to look at it is that I want to help people who have lost someone. I want to help put the bad guys in jail, No one has the right to decide the fate of another human being, anyone who does isnt right. I just want to do something I love and help people. thats not much to ask right?

Stuff coming up for me - a possible "write about".

-I'm going to oxford university for a day trip on May 16th - I have to get up at 5:00 in the morning!!!!!!!!!!!

50 Thoughts of a Curious Teenager

Nothing Much to Do

First Post - Thinking